So I started out my morning, just like any other – working out. I do 45 minutes on a recumbent bike. Which I am ever so grateful for. I do not know what I would do if I didn’t have this bike (we received if for FREE from a couple we know), especially in the winter months. I need this workout/endorphin releasing time, daily. Especially when I’m stressed. Which I was this weekend. WOW.
We are entering our second week of being on a very strict, set budget. Our grocery budget is about 1/3 of what we were spending….and it was frustrating this weekend. I went into it thinking it would be sooo easy to find what I needed. It wasn’t. It took 4 different stores and I still wish I could have found better deals. I was ready to cry last night. We have $2 left in the grocery envelope. That has to last me until Friday. Now, I am thankful because I did get all the groceries I need for the week (so why am I stressing – when the Lord did provide what we need?). BUT my problem is this – I sit and think about ALL the possible scenarios that COULD happen this week, in which we wouldn’t have the money. And maybe not just this week, but next week, Or next month…or even in a year!!! Then what? What will we do? What if the money isn’t there? And do you know what that is called? It’s a sin – it’s worrying about things that aren’t even real. It’s conjuring up scenarios that don’t have any merit. I ended up with such a tight and almost-locked jaw last night from being so stressed. Yup – that’s how bad it was. I should be feeling less stress about money, now that we have a plan in place, right? Right. And I will get there – I just have to learn how to adjust to this new way of living. We’re living like no one else now, so that we can live like no one else later, according to Dave Ramsey. Will it be easy? Clearly, NO. HA! Will it be worth it? Yes. I fully believe so. I know we’ll be blessed along the way, as well. We’ll be happier and less stressed. We just have to get used to this new way.
What does this mean? It means adjusting our lifestyle – for instance, I clipped our dog’s nails yesterday. Whew! AND she didn’t bleed! I did it! I prayed before and during it all. I prayed that she wouldn’t jump and that I wouldn’t clip her or cut the nails too short. Guess what? I saved us $15-$25!
There were multiple blessings in my weekend – a 2 hour coffee date with a close friend, an evening walk with my husband and son, watching a movie (at home, free) with my husband Saturday night and an encouraging phone call from my daddy, from whom I have inherited my stressing ways. 🙂 So he gets me and he knows the right words to say to validate how I feel, yet encourage me to try to let go of the stress. Because we have Someone how has our backs constantly.
So here’s to a real budget and to living with boundaries – for a good cause. Also, here’s to my learning to curb my over-imaginative thinking and not conjuring up scenarios that will more than likely NEVER happen…but if they do, at least I’ve already thought out every possible way to solve the problem. HA!